Band Sinister

i bought this book on a whim because someone complimented the smut in it. i was not let down; indeed, i was very much satisfied by the smut. i feel this book had a very perfect balance of love and lust, also to love and lust at the same time. it was so romantic yet slutty. JOHNVIN 4 LIFE!!!! it almost felt like second-hand yearning: i was so immersed in the book that i felt it was me there, wishing i could be with my gay lover in freedom, without judgement. i loved when guy went in depth about such things, but what i loved more is how phillip didn't promise him anything fairytale-like. he didn't promise guy a happy ending: he said they could have something, yet there'd be a price. i felt for them so much because whilst nowadays it's more open, there's still the inner guilt of being gay and being viewed as different and separate from the world.