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I really liked Khaw's prose but I think that the story could've benefited from another hundred pages or so. the ending wasn't what I expected, nor hoped, it would be, and it came far too soon. 

This was not really picking up for me and I particularly wasn't enjoying how frequently I had to read about Pyotr raping Anna. I'm going to try one of Arden's other books later. 

one of those books that I kept wishing I'd written the entire time I was reading it. andrew joseph white gets it.

As a queer trans guy, I see so much of my own journey in Lou's. He wasn't perfect, as none of us are, but he was honest and he was human. He cared so much for others and worked so hard to ensure that people like me could exist, unashamed, in the world. I feel such gratitude for the love that he showed himself in his lifetime, and such grief that the world lost him too soon. Thank you, Lou.

This may be coming from a part of my mind still processing Lou Sullivan's We Both Laughed in Pleasure, but Monstrilio feels so remarkably transmasc (and autistic!) to me. I'm utterly fascinated by S??mano C??rdova's mind and how, whether he intended to, he has so succinctly managed to capture the insatiability that comes when you've tasted the truth of your being and the ache of diminishing yourself for those you love.

They are happy to believe I forgot how they maimed me.