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Omg it is such a bad idea to be emotionally devastated during one of the most important years of my life but what the hell. God. The doomed siblings. The characters, THE POLITICS, the greys (my friend said that i shouldn’t overthink and there are some ethical black and whites but THIS is what you empathise with when you read a lot of books and art, it’ll make you feel sad, but also a bit hopeful) fuck man. I want to reread this, I flew through this without paying attention to the writing. But, I simply don’t have the time. FUCKKKKK. God, wei and her search for truth. Her judging and knowing Terren, hanwei, and other people, i really liked reading her thoughts. Her mind was an interesting place to be. She was tactful, witty, resilient, adaptable. I admire her understanding of classism, imperialism and politics. (which she built over time, she’s a really quick learner. She had to be) I understood the rationale behind the things she did, even if her actions were not always morally right. Now, terren. I wouldn’t call him a complex character because that would imply that he was hard to understand. He wasn’t. Empathising with him was incredibly easy. Every revelation about his story felt like a punch to the gut. But it provoked conflicting emotions. As, he was cruel and abusive but the world did fail him. It wasn’t hard to imagine how he would’ve ended up the way he did. Maro, He kind of felt a bit unmemorable for me at the end maybe because I was so caught up with terren. For some reason I feel like I find the second children much more interesting than the eldest ones. Maybe…because I’m intrigued by the impact of them having another figure in their development since they were born. The ways in which they are impacted by that. And for some reason, every second child I’ve seen is more “talented” (probably because they were exposed to more), more creative, spontaneous and free to some extent, but obviously that is partly because of the strain, pressure and restrictedness(?) that the eldest ones had to face. But then so interesting. As I mentioned, I love doomed siblings. Adds a level of competitiveness and toxicity. Now, Silian song. She was beautiful and smart and she betrayed me. Haven’t we all been there? Girls? (If not all girls then atleast lesbians?) man I love it. Wei is definitely into women. And thank goodness for that. I was dreading a romantic arc between Terren and wei. P.S. And I liked the way hanwei’s voice was written and the difference between his storytelling, maro’s and terren’s.
Omg it is such a bad idea to be emotionally devastated during one of the most important years of my life but what the hell. God. The doomed siblings. The characters, THE POLITICS, the greys (my friend said that i shouldn’t overthink and there are some ethical black and whites but THIS is what you empathise with when you read a lot of books and art, it’ll make you feel sad, but also a bit hopeful) fuck man. I want to reread this, I flew through this without paying attention to the writing. But, I simply don’t have the time. FUCKKKKK. God, wei and her search for truth. Her judging and knowing Terren, hanwei, and other people, i really liked reading her thoughts. Her mind was an interesting place to be. She was tactful, witty, resilient, adaptable. I admire her understanding of classism, imperialism and politics. (which she built over time, she’s a really quick learner. She had to be) I understood the rationale behind the things she did, even if her actions were not always morally right. Now, terren. I wouldn’t call him a complex character because that would imply that he was hard to understand. He wasn’t. Empathising with him was incredibly easy. Every revelation about his story felt like a punch to the gut. But it provoked conflicting emotions. As, he was cruel and abusive but the world did fail him. It wasn’t hard to imagine how he would’ve ended up the way he did. Maro, He kind of felt a bit unmemorable for me at the end maybe because I was so caught up with terren. For some reason I feel like I find the second children much more interesting than the eldest ones. Maybe…because I’m intrigued by the impact of them having another figure in their development since they were born. The ways in which they are impacted by that. And for some reason, every second child I’ve seen is more “talented” (probably because they were exposed to more), more creative, spontaneous and free to some extent, but obviously that is partly because of the strain, pressure and restrictedness(?) that the eldest ones had to face. But then so interesting. As I mentioned, I love doomed siblings. Adds a level of competitiveness and toxicity. Now, Silian song. She was beautiful and smart and she betrayed me. Haven’t we all been there? Girls? (If not all girls then atleast lesbians?) man I love it. Wei is definitely into women. And thank goodness for that. I was dreading a romantic arc between Terren and wei. P.S. And I liked the way hanwei’s voice was written and the difference between his storytelling, maro’s and terren’s.