I'll See You Again

cw: suicide, suicidal ideations, death, terminal illness (cancer), pregnancy scare, assault, abandonment, cheating

this book: why must a book be good? is it not enough to simply have a gay mc and a ton of tropes?

the gay mc in question is cyrus, a middle class 17 year old in desperate need of therapy (tbh all the characters do) who has an absent father and a mum with cancer. his love interest is nico, an upper class classmate who has been actively pursuing cyrus for years though cyrus seems to be in denial about this.

- the mcs have zero chemistry. i have no idea why they were even together when they would have definitely made better friends
- this book sets out as one-sided enemies to lovers for no real reason with the ‘enemies' part being relatively short
- none of these characters have boundaries or respect for each other
- seriously, all of these characters are dicks (cyrus' dad comes back into his life and cyrus punches him twice! and then cyrus' dad commits suicide! and he doesn't care that much. seriously wtf)
- none of these characters recognise their privilege and it seriously irked me (after cyrus' mum dies, he finds out one of his mum's doctors is being accused of malpractice and he won't join the lawsuit again him because he has money from his dad)
- this book posits that suicide is ‘selfish' multiple times
- everyone argues with everyone over trivial things and their moods flip in an instant
- i have never heard teenagers talk like this in my life and everyone seems to talk exactly the same

i just have no idea why this book is written in this way when it's abundantly clear that cyrus and nico should be in therapy and never should have even attempted to be together.