Looking for Alaska

i love this book. i love how meaningful and impactful every single line is. when i was reading it constantly felt like i was looking for answers, like how i could find my own way out of the labyrinth, or what my great perhaps was/will be. this book just leaves me utterly curious about life, and i love it. i felt like alaska's character was so purposefully incomplete, and the mystery element of her personality really makes the book whole. no one never really knew alaska; for example, pudge started to forget things she did because he'd never really remembered those things about her. another example is the colonel forgetting what she looked like. i think those are significant things to portray how alaska was never really known, always half-seen. now if ur wondering what i think about alaska's death, i think it was suicide. i think she wanted to get out of her labyrinth of grief and hurt, “straight and fast”. she felt failure about her actions towards her mum, and felt as though the only thing she could do to make up for those actions was to die.