Twenty Love Poems and a Song of Despair

I ??can write the saddest lines tonight.??

Write for example: ???The night is fractured??
and they shiver, blue, those stars, in the distance?????

The night wind turns in the sky and sings.??
I can write the saddest lines tonight.??
I loved her, sometimes she loved me too.??

On nights like these I held her in my arms.??
I kissed her greatly under the infinite sky.??

She loved me, sometimes I loved her too.??
How could I not have loved her huge, still eyes.??

I can write the saddest lines tonight.??
To think I don???t have her, to feel I have lost her.??

Hear the vast night, vaster without her.??
Lines fall on the soul like dew on the grass.??

What does it matter that I couldn???t keep her.??
The night is fractured and she is not with me.??

That is all. Someone sings far off. Far off,??
my soul is not content to have lost her.??

As though to reach her, my sight looks for her.??
My heart looks for her: she is not with me??


The same night whitens, in the same branches.??
We, from that time, we are not the same.??

I don???t love her, that???s certain, but how I loved her.??
My voice tried to find the breeze to reach her.??

Another???s kisses on her, like my kisses.??
Her voice, her bright body, infinite eyes.??

I don???t love her, that???s certain, but perhaps I love her.??
Love is brief: forgetting lasts so long.??

Since, on these nights, I held her in my arms,??
my soul is not content to have lost her.??

Though this is the last pain she will make me suffer,??
and these are the last lines I will write for her.

একখানা গোটা কবিতাও ভালো লাগেনি। বর্ণনা, উপমা, আবেগ, কাব্যভাষা... কোনোকিছুই আহামরি মনে হয়নি। একদম নিম্নমানের না হলেও... ওই আরকি... চলে যায়। শুধু হাতেগোনা কয়েকটা পঙক্তি ভালো লেগেছে। কিন্তু সেগুলোও বহুব্যবহারে পচে গ্যাছে। এখন সেগুলোও ভালো লাগেনা।

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