Stéphane Mallarmé, *Petit Air*

I

Any solitude Without a swan or quai Mirrors its disuse In the gaze I abdicate

Far from that pride’s excess Too high to enfold In which many a sky paints itself With the twilight’s gold

But languorously flows beside Like white linen laid aside Such fleeting birds as dive Exultantly at my side

Into the wave made you Your exultation nude.

A beautiful memoir, and piece of philosophy - most depressing yet lovely work.

See Sheer-Clarke for a unification of Mosley's critique with Heinrich's infantile views.

Yeah, it all sucks, if this is the nonsense Bookchin was prattling on about, I do not want it. Let us try socialism next. All these ideologies of the past, capitalism, fascism, anarchism, I say, “To the scrap heap!”.

  • plunge into darkness
    - suicide affects others, not just family but communities
    - the boys are hurt and stunted in their maturity and emotional growth
    - emotional numbness
    - good prose, it pulled me in nicely

Anarchist slop

Every drive is a todestrieb, a death drive. Faced with immortality, Eros as Thanatos turns in on itself.

and so we came forth and once again beheld the stars

Jeg kan ikke beskrive hvor god den her bog er. Min sjæl revet åbent og mit sind splintret, jeg kan ikke trække vejret. Det er som om min basal, dyriske, praktiske primal punkter gisper. Jeg både græder og griner. Min følelser overvældet til et punkt hvor de ikke kender sig selv.

One of the most interesting books I've read in terms of structure. He'll write a passage, dialogue, scene etc., then in the next line criticise it, interject and break the fourth wall.
The prequel to No Longer Human.
3.5 stars

Jeg er en æstetiker, en erotiker...

Meow I'm a cat.

Yeah, depression.

“The creatures outside looked from pig to man, and from man to pig, and from pig to man again; but already it was impossible to say which was which.”