Morthos

ugly sobbing x2

I'll gush about this later. Just know that this manga made me extremely happy.

2.75

Story 1: Not as cute as I hoped. Maybe it's because I understand what having a form of generalized anxiety feels like, but I really hated seeing Kajiyama be so impatient with Aizawa. Seeing him go “doesn't he care at all" pissed me off so much because the author didn't even have to show me, I KNOW what overthinking and over-worrying looks like in someone with anxiety. I KNOW that working up the courage to text somebody, let alone while in the middle of a fight, has set him spiraling on his he should approach his text that he shouldn't be apologizing for anyway. So now so much time has passed that he feels you've gotten even angrier at him and he's even more anxious…

The way he yelled and pushed him out of his comfort zone instead of easing Aizawa out of the mascot helmet didn't make me care for them as a couple whenever there were cute moments.

Besides that, it also felt like 3 chapters weren't enough to have this story flow smoothly. Everything that happened at the amusement park felt like things were moving too fast. They didn't even take a moment to talk about what he said when they were alone. From there to the confession, it just felt rushed.

I love and support Aizawa. Kajiyama can eat rocks.

Story 2: Cuter. Pretty simple and I didn't hate either of the characters. I would've liked another chapter of them, honestly. Using the terms depressed and trauma like this was far-reaching.

Story 3: This was kind of ok. I was interested in the “does he actually like me" drama until what I thought would be dubious consent, turned into something too immature for me personally (like, guys… lube. Research, I beg you!). It made it so hard to read. On top of them not properly talking things out, it just kind of went back downhill for me.

It's been a while and I didn't log this one at all in my notes app like I normally do, so I can't really go in-depth on why I'm dropping this like I kind of want to.

All I can remember is that I didn't care about both of our main characters. I also don't like the "I'm rude as fuck to you because I think teasing you is cute" kind of character personality, it made me not want to root for their relationship.

I didn't want to drop nor put this on hold especially since there's another story in here, but this book put me in a reading slump that's starting to piss me off. I don't like Minami, I don't care about the story, don't care about the couple, and really can't stand the art style. All of this doesn't make me want to continue, but I just dropped the manga before last and I don't want to do that again so soon.

The gang stuff is whatever. I didn't care for it but I also didn't really mind it, it wasn't the main part of the book so I can deal. What really made this difficult for me (besides the art) was just Minami himself. He's moving way too fast for Sakurada who's obviously trying to become more comfortable with being with a guy. Hell, in a relationship in general, to be honest. But it doesn't read like Minami's is considering that most of the time. It's kind of annoying and disgusting, really not making me like Minami at all. I also thought that their first conflict was just fucking stupid.

I don't know, even though this is going on hold, I may just end up dropping it. This worries me because I have a couple more manga from this author on my TBR that I'm now not eager to get to.

Update: Realized that I'm never coming back to this.

This is not for me. I'm not sure what made me put this on my TBR but I definitely forgot what the tags were by the time I got around to this.

There are a lot of yearly 2000s/2010s BL bullshit that I don't like. That borderline homophobic and sexist dialogue is very much there that got on my nerves. I'm always very weary when there's crossdressing in BL because it's mostly handled as a joke/misunderstanding. The dialogue surrounding Izumi crossdressing, the “but I'm not a girl" stuff I hate, and Muroto's obvious interest in him either way but hiding that behind the whole crossdressing thing doesn't sit right with me. On the student/teacher topic, that's not the focused relationship, but I honestly thought they were college professors at first and not high school teachers so the whole thing about 19/18 year olders wanting to get with this teacher is uncomfortable for me. Alongside that, one of the people involved in this love triangle is one of the 19/18 year old students...

The last book by this author was a bit of a struggle to get through, too, but I was able to bounce back from that. I don't think I can take any more of this one. I also don't think I'm going to continue reading from Emi Mitsuki so I'm dropping the other 3 manga I had planned from her as well. Knowing how this story's going to be, maybe I'll come back to it if it stays in my head long enough. But, for now, I'm dropping it.