Here where I am now

Matty Strydom's “Here where I am now” is a poignant and candid chronicle that delves into the depths of grief and loss following the tragic suicide of her 19-year-old daughter, Jessica. This book intertwines the raw journey of a mother coping with the aftermath of her daughter's untimely death and her own physical travels across Southeast Asia and other unconventional destinations.

The narrative unfolds as Matty embarks on a quest, using diary entries as a means to communicate with Jessica, seeking understanding and grappling with her daughter's decision and passing. Despite the absence of a farewell note, their bond, highly creative and passionate, resonates throughout the book. Matty seeks solace in literature and art, documenting her ongoing dialogue in lyrical and imaginative prose.

“Here where I am now” speaks profoundly to parents enduring the aftermath of a child's suicide and resonates with those who cherish words and voyages. Matty's emotional journey, fragmented like a shattered mirror yet illuminated with abundant light, renders this book a compelling read. Its deeply spiritual essence amplifies the healing process, unraveling the profound connection shared between Matty and Jessica. Matty's travels toward healing and acceptance through literature, music, and art showcase the cathartic power of understanding oneself and the bond with her departed daughter. This is a raw, honest narrative, echoing a soulful connection that transcends tragedy.