Over the Top: A Raw Journey to Self-Love

I almost DNF that book. Almost.

Queer Eye is one of my utmost favourite TV series of all time. I love the rhythm, all transformations and the dynamic the Fab5 have. Although, after that, I realized that... would be better to keep loving them away from reality.

I do not love Jonathan more or less than before after listening to his biography. I do respect him and his trajectory – even the deep bad things that he let happen to him and what he suffered too – to become the JVN that we love so deeply in the series.

However... I was expecting more. I was expecting a different part of his life to be presented. I was hoping to listen to his family, his stepdad and their relationship that he always said it was so, so close and unique (note only his childhood, when they first met). I was expecting more step by step ways to ensure and love yourself.
I was expecting less ice-skating, self-destruction emphasis, less groceries and indulgent unhealthy food descriptions.

It's Jonathan! I was expecting feeling light, full of energy, laugh out loud with his stories and bravery while challenging and overcoming life obstacles. But no. I kind of became depressed and grumpy with all. And unsatisfied with what I was spending my time with.

At some point, I've started to blame myself for not being an LGBTQ+ person hence to not appreciate or make connections with what was his reality, his true demons.

It's pretty sad to give 3 stars for an autobiography. Obviously, that doesn't mean that his life until now worth 3 stars.
But for now... I do not think this book could be used as a feeding soul material for me.