Whisper

Guys. This book is EVERYTHING. There's so much pain in this book. And betrayal the likes of which no love should survive. And yet....

Sorry there's just no good way to review this properly without spoilers.

Let's start with Dan.

To meet the love of your life and finally get the courage to tell him how you feel, only to discover he met the love of HIS life two months prior. While you were gathering up courage.

To then watch that man love him the way you dreamed, to such great lengths that you can't even be mad about it🤷🏾‍♀️(except he is sksks)

And then to have to watch the man you love lose the man he loves, and watch him grieve for a fucking decade!!!!! A decade, y'all!

And then fucking finally, finally, he decides to give you a chance. To try and see where things could go, and guess who fucking climbs out of the grave that very night. Literally. That very night. His bloody supposed to be dead husband.

To sit next to the man you've loved more than half your life, the very next day, and hold his hand while he details to a forensics team how his long thought-dead husband creampied him four times the previous night....💀💀💀

Honestly, it was at that moment at Fairview that I figured hmmm...No way you're not radicalized by then. Man said I am NAWT God's strongest soldier. 💀

Anyway on a more serious note.

Interwoven with all this, what I hate most about this romance is how utterly and completely David ruined Kris. With precision.

After EVERYTHING Kris did, after every way he fought for them to be together, for it to be fucking David that gives Ryan the ammo to say...

"If you two were so fucking in love they had to change CIA policy to accommodate that, why didn't he come back to that?"

I can't forgive David for that, I'm sorry.

I UNDERSTAND his reasons, eventually. But I wouldn't FORGIVE him.

"I thought he came back for me. To me."

Guys, my heart 😭

I understand the way romance works, but I swear to God I could never forgive this. NEVERRRRR.

I thought I'd seen betrayal but THISSSSSS was a discovery.

The fact that he actually went through Kris' laptop.

He fucked him. And then he fucked him over.

"Do you think so little of me?

" Yes!

After yesterday, after the past decade, yes!"

Wack him for me!

I swearrrrrr, the way Kris felt at 80% of this book is something I'd never be able to get past.

And then again at 90%? Lol the hits start coming and they don't stop coming.

I wish there's been a more drawn out grovel for this. I mean, it was already 26 hours, what more could one extra have hurt lol. Near death experiences don't count for me, sorry.

Honestly if I were Kris, after ALL THIS? I don't know if I'd ever be able to trust anyone ever again.

I know the specific content is triggering, but don’t we keep saying we want love so intense that either MC would rather watch the world burn than hurt the one he loves?

Dawood basically said 'lol I hear you but that's just not me, sorry'

'If I came out of the mountains and got confirmation of your death, that reality would kill me. "

" So you just made me live with it. "

Honestly the more Dawood spoke, the less I rated him. 10/10 patriot but shit romance MC.

'If I could do it all over again, I'd make the same choices?'

EXCUSE ME? Some thoughts HAVE to stay thoughts.

Fuck Kris, I guess??? Christ. When he already felt like Dawood had chosen his religion and his son over him. Confirmation is a bitch.

This just reinforced my belief that fanaticism is grounds. I should be your religion, lol.